the spiders are still in my head...

last night i had the encounter of swallowing a spider whilst musicating at my buddy sam's place. it hit me after the fact. i felt sorry for the poor guy, and then i eventually threw him up. i swallowed a spider, and threw him up...

earlier today after breakfasting, i return to my room, and on my pillow, is a spider. waiting. waiting for what? i still don't know... in my attempt to cup him and set him free, he was smushed in the process.

i felt sorry for him. at the same time, i'm wondering as to why he was waiting on my pillow so... is there something... that i don't know..? perhaps it was his cousin that i swallowed the previous night. and this little guy, came back for a fight! positioning himself not only in my bed; the exact same spot where i rest my head! diabolical! ingenious! scheming to 'do his work' while i'm dreaming... or perhaps infact, i've gotten offtrack, and said spiders are trying to tell me something?

nonetheless, i'm careful at best. searching in every possible nook and cranny, for another spider cousin, brother, or even granny!

i check my boots now, i check my shoes; there they could be waiting - what do i have to lose? my guitar hole, my toilet, nowhere is safe! i REFUSE to fall victim to a venomous fate!

are these spiders friend or foe? theories are welcome; do tell! oh well... they're getting to me good...

so it seems that my week(end) of birthday festivities has come to an end, and i find myself exactly one year older. pondering if or how much i've gotten wiser. the evolution of the things around me, have i grown to any greater understanding of the world and it's workings? it's the journey, not the destination. i have to keep telling myself that. i find that constantly searching for the proper way to define myself is difficult when myself keeps changing. maybe the spiders are trying to tell me something? oh what a web... world wide.

my ceiling fan is now on full blast. i'd like to attribute that to the atlanta heat, but i must confess that it's actually on it's highest level in attempts to blow the spiders away. i feel like a gang of them is just around the corner, waiting to jump me. or share me worthwild insight that could change my life. one of the two.

scattered puzzle pieces. flip it over and throw them together. realign, rearrange.

"Ladies and gentlemen, the Captain Frank has turned on the Fasten Seat Belt sign. If you haven't already done so, please stow your carry-on luggage underneath the seat in front of you or in an overhead bin. Please take your seat and fasten your seat belt. And also make sure your seat back and folding trays are in their full upright position.

If you are seated next to an emergency exit, please read carefully the special instructions card located by your seat. If you do not wish to perform the functions described in the event of an emergency, please ask a flight attendant to reseat you.

At this time, we request that all cellular phones, pagers, radios and remote controlled toys be turned off for the full duration of the flight, as these items might interfere with the navigational and communication equipment on this aircraft. We request that all other electronic devices be turned off until we fly above 10,000 feet. We will notify you when it is safe to use such devices.

If you have any questions about our flight today, please don't hesitate to ask one of our flight attendants. Thank you."

i'm traveling again soon so me thinks. probably to your town. if you have a comfy couch to offer, i'd prefer them much more than any hotel ;-)

a fun ride it shall be... and now as slumber awaits... the spiders are still in my head. tonight, it might be my own couch, in place of my bed... or maybe i'll stay up and write instead...
|frank bell|



the spiders are still in my head + today's musication
Current mood: contemplative

last night i had the encounter of swallowing a spider whilst musicating at my buddy sam's place. it hit me after the fact. i felt sorry for the poor guy, and then i eventually threw him up. i swallowed a spider, and threw him up...

earlier today after breakfasting, i return to my room, and on my pillow, is a spider. waiting. waiting for what? i still don't know... in my attempt to cup him and set him free, he was smushed in the process.

i felt sorry for him. at the same time, i'm wondering as to why he was waiting on my pillow so... is there something... that i don't know..? perhaps it was his cousin that i swallowed the previous night. and this little guy, came back for a fight! positioning himself not only in my bed; the exact same spot where i rest my head! diabolical! ingenious! scheming to 'do his work' while i'm dreaming... or perhaps infact, i've gotten offtrack, and said spiders are trying to tell me something?

nonetheless, i'm careful at best. searching in every possible nook and cranny, for another spider cousin, brother, or even granny!

i check my boots now, i check my shoes; there they could be waiting - what do i have to lose? my guitar hole, my toilet, nowhere is safe! i REFUSE to fall victim to a venomous fate!

are these spiders friend or foe? theories are welcome; do tell! oh well... they're getting to me good...

so it seems that my week(end) of birthday festivities has come to an end, and i find myself exactly one year older. pondering if or how much i've gotten wiser. the evolution of the things around me, have i grown to any greater understanding of the world and it's workings? it's the journey, not the destination. i have to keep telling myself that. i find that constantly searching for the proper way to define myself is difficult when myself keeps changing. maybe the spiders are trying to tell me something? oh what a web... world wide.

my ceiling fan is now on full blast. i'd like to attribute that to the atlanta heat, but i must confess that it's actually on it's highest level in attempts to blow the spiders away. i feel like a gang of them is just around the corner, waiting to jump me. or share me worthwild insight that could change my life. one of the two.

scattered puzzle pieces. flip it over and throw them together. realign, rearrange.

"Ladies and gentlemen, the Captain Frank has turned on the Fasten Seat Belt sign. If you haven't already done so, please stow your carry-on luggage underneath the seat in front of you or in an overhead bin. Please take your seat and fasten your seat belt. And also make sure your seat back and folding trays are in their full upright position.

If you are seated next to an emergency exit, please read carefully the special instructions card located by your seat. If you do not wish to perform the functions described in the event of an emergency, please ask a flight attendant to reseat you.

At this time, we request that all cellular phones, pagers, radios and remote controlled toys be turned off for the full duration of the flight, as these items might interfere with the navigational and communication equipment on this aircraft. We request that all other electronic devices be turned off until we fly above 10,000 feet. We will notify you when it is safe to use such devices.

If you have any questions about our flight today, please don't hesitate to ask one of our flight attendants. Thank you."

i'm traveling again soon so me thinks. probably to your town. if you have a comfy couch to offer, i'd prefer them much more than any hotel ;-)

a fun ride it shall be... and now as slumber awaits... the spiders are still in my head. tonight, it might be my own couch, in place of my bed... or maybe i'll stay up and write instead...

i'l leave you with this. a video of today's musication with dear friend phil h. 12 hours of fun. be well!
|frank bell|

The spider shows us that the past, the present and the future are all interwoven. It awakens our intuitive creative senses and encourages us to design the fabric of our lives from our souls original intention. If you see a spider in its web, or creating a new one, pay attention. It symbolizes where you are in the weaving of your own destiny. A study of the medicine wheel and the four directions is helpful.

Because spiders are actually very delicate they embody the energy of gentleness. Spiders are not usually aggressive unless they are defending their lives. Moving forward in all situations with a gentle strength is a skill that often needs to be learned for those with this totem. In man, the bite of a poisonous spider symbolizes a death, rebirth process. Poison enters the nervous system and the body either transmutes it or falls victim to its venom and dies.

The spider signifies the tapestry of life. The web we weave is the reality we experience. Choosing the appropriate path is one of the lessons associated with this medicine.

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7:29 PM
 xOlax said:

It's strange, indeed, the spider encounters I mean. I just discovered your wonderful, amazing music today and decided to check out your web site. This blog interested me. Spiders follow me everywhere. If I'm ever in a room, there will be a spider. I never noticed it until I got my Tarot cards read one day by my friend's wife's sister (who I had met the day of getting them). She asked me if spiders were significant in my life, I couldn't really answer the question since they hadn't been. There happend to be one right above my head as she asked this, and told me she had never once seen a spider in that room that we were in. She told me that spiders follow me around because they promote confidence. They promote a take-control, take-action. If you notice, these little spiders risk their lives everyday in our giant human world. They take a leap each time, risking their lives. Spiders are the ones encouraging us to go forth, be strong, and take a chance.

This is the significance spiders have in my life. I was hoping maybe it'd help you relate. So if there is anything you're holding back, afraid to risk, or have lost your way, let that be a little sign.

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